A New Life

Well I am getting a divorce from Albert. He ended up cheating about the time Kendra went to Oklahoma. I ended going wayward and sleeping with a couple of guys myself. I told Albert about it the whole time. He has even meet them also. In July of 2016 i tried to work it out with him but it didn't end all that great. So i left him the second time. In August, I meet Tommy Ratton. 

I believe that he came to me for a very special reason. He seems to get me right off the bat. He has been similar events that I have been. Right now we are living in Pangburn since December 2016. He has two children. Melissa and Tommy. Melissa lives with us and Lil Tommy lives in Kansas. I have all ways wanted to have kids. This time I have two children. I love them both (Even though I have not meet Tommy yet) very much. Even if I don't actually give physical birth, I still have two children. 

It all seems like it is too good to be true, I think this is the man I am actually supposed to be with and marry. I all ways wonder if all this bullshit I went through meant that I was supposed to end up with this wonderful man. I care so much about Tommy than I ever did with Albert. I just want them to know however I act towards them that I still love my new little family. I wish that they could see inside my head to see how much love I have for them all.

My diabetes does place a huge role in my attitude and Tommy understands it all. So i went into therapy at Harding University and I honestly don't think my therapist understands how I am feeling half the time. So I went to Families Inc. to sign up. I am going to try to try them out and see how it goes. Right now I am waiting for my intake. I am nervous about it all. 

I am going to go. Probably be back on here today,

Sorry so late

I work at Walmart now. Still have diabetes. Building a home. Still with Albert four years and five months. Fixing to go to the beach again for the fourth of July. Messed up big time with a friend I believe. 

I need to keep up with this blog because it may only help me remember all of my mistakes and teach me not to make em ever again. I wish my friend understand. I miss talking to her. Now she in Oklahoma. Her man said she lost her kids to her ex. Which it hurts even me. She is going thru what my brother is going thru. It sucks cause it's wrong. More abt it later. 

Peace be with you all

diabetic problem

I just hate how messed up how my body is. I ain't liking on how I am a diabetic. Just little over a week ago I went to the doctor and had to change my meds all over agian. Geez I can't handle all this stupid meds.