Rearrange

Well I rearrange my living room today. I just felt like a change. I just wish life was a little bit easier. That's all

So i had a problem

So I had a scuffle with my fiance. I just wish we quit having them. Every time he gets drunk we have them. Maybe my guardian angels will help his drinking problems.

Well its not just him. I have to keep taking my meds everyday and make sure that it at the right time. Sometimes when I don't take them I go psycho and I don't want to be. Life would be great if I did everything right for once.

I love this man dearly and I hope this will work out right for once. I need and want to stay happy. I just think if he would love me enough maybe we both fix each others demons and make a better life for each other. It is something that is needed for us.

Some day

Some days I just want to sleep all day long and not worry about a damn thing. Life is hard without my parents now. My dad I all ways asked for advice and now I can't. Yes I know I am whiny but this all needs to come out as my therapist says. I am going to leave here for a bit. I am at the drs office

Well I can't wear jeans till I am cleared up and use spray deorderant. Well I guess that's what I will be doing the next few weeks.  I just love how I am healthy

Life sucks

My dad passed away on July 10, 2017. It really sucks. This death is harder to take than my own moms.

It sucks because there was a solar elicpse that I wanted to experience with my parents and never got to.

Well I have to work on depression, ptsd, bipolar with psychosis, and anxiety.  Hopefully this new med change works out good for me.

Well I will update soon.